My friends are very much aware of my hearing difficulty. It all started 5 years ago. My Mom is concerned about me. They can almost hear the songs in my ipod where in fact, I was wearing an earphone. I also kept on having “misheard moments”. I keep on saying “Ha?” and then ask my friend to repeat his/her words. All these years, I am used to people shouting “Bingi!” on me, especially on our campus when I’m walking around and then someone will shout “Chengggg” but I won’t be able to notice it unless my friend would tell “Huy may tumatawag sayo!” but it was too late already. :(
When I started working, I felt that my hearing ability is starting to get worse. For some people, they thought I was “shouting” where, in fact, that was my normal voice! Since I was afraid to offend anybody with my “commanding voice”, I decided to stop talking at work unless I really have to.
So this morning, I feel physically and mentally exhausted. I decided to ask permission if I could skip work. I took this opportunity to visit my Otolaryngologist (Ear doctor) in Medical City. I remember visiting that clinic 5 years ago (2009) before entering UST because my Mother is wary that this hearing difficulty could affect my performance in College. I recall that my case wasn’t that severe and I was only asked to take this particular vitamin.
However, things are not the same a while ago. Dr. Jarin told me that there’s nothing wrong with my eardrums, but it was probably my “ear nerves” that was damaged. There, he dropped the bomb.
I need to wear “hearing aids”.
My Mom and I went to the American Hearing Center in Podium for hearing aids fitting. I undergo in a Air Conduction Test and was a bit relieved when they told me my case is MILD and not severe. However, when my Mom asked them how much a hearing aid cost, feeling ko biglang luminaw yung pandinig ko.
Mom: How much?
AHC: Depende po Mam. Yung pinaka mura na po is 44,000. Depends kung gaano pa kadiscreet yung hearing aid.
Mom: Ha? Ang mahal! Eh yung battery nun, ilang years ang span?
AHC: Mam, 1 week lang po.
Me: Grabe naman! Mag aral na lang ako mag sign language. :))
I tried wearing it and felt a little bit of difference from my normal. AHC told me na baka nakapag adapt na ako kaya naninibago ako using it. In my case, optional pa to use. But sooner or later, I’ll be needing a hearing aid forever. :( My ears are starting to deteriorate and only a hearing aid can slow it down. However, unlike eyeglasses, hearing aids cannot provide complete correction for the impairment. No hearing aid will restore hearing to normal or provide a perfect substitute for normal hearing.
So yeah, we ended up not buying a hearing aid. Right now, I can only depend on that vitamin to improve my hearing.
Maybe science has a miracle to give. Or God has a greater plan. Besides, hearing through ears is different from listening through your heart. I am emotionally ready for this. :)